The Daily Beast
Another post by Dave Cullen. This time on a meeting between the parents of Eric Harris and one of his victims, Daniel Mauser.
Very interesting read however it does not change my opinion that the Harrises bear a major responsibility for what happened.
Accused shooter’s journal: ‘Planning your suicide is so fun’:
Some more testimony about Castillo wanting to go gay for his dead cowardly hero Eric Harris…
“(He wrote), ‘ Eric is just so good-looking. I can’t believe he couldn’t get a date for the prom. If I was a girl, I would have gone to the prom with him. Does that sound gay, straight or bi?’” Wolf said, citing Castillo’s journal entry.
Now I don’t care if someone is gay, straight or whatever but this goes to show how deep his mutancy was that he was sexually attracted to a mass murderer. As a matter of fact I just invented a new word for people like Castillo. He’s a mutantsexual.
I’ll update this tread throughout the day if more information becomes available.
Attack plan on school server:
One of the Columbine killers apparently downloaded plans for a spree of violence into a school computer the day before the shootings, possibly a final act of defiance that might have derailed the massacre if someone had checked the files.
At least 18 pages found in Eric Harris’ school computer files are dated April 19, 1999, about 8:30 a.m. Among the clearest indicators of the rampage that he and Dylan Klebold carried out the next day is a sort of crude list that mentions, “prepare explosives” and “shells.” Another sheet carries the notations “cannon fuse” and “napalm tests.” Drawings of battle gear and what appear to be a swastika are on other pages.
“Had myself or anyone in a position of authority seen these, there would have been a definite confrontation, immediately,” Richard Long, former head of technology for Columbine High School, said Friday. “We would have certainly talked to those individuals.”
But such a scenario was unlikely. The school did not routinely check student computer files partly because it would take so long, Long said. Such files were accessed by authorities only in response to suspicious activity.
Long was also familiar with Harris and Klebold. They were his student assistants for their first two and a half years at Columbine before they got busted for hacking into the computer system and stealing locker combinations.
Long saw the two boys change from “bright-eyed” freshmen to teens with darker attitudes. He believes that downloading the material the day before the shootings – if that is indeed what happened – may have been one way of thumbing their noses at authority.
“They carried propane bottles into the school,” he added. “How much more bold can you be?”
The last sign to go unheeded.
The Columbine Diaries: Old Wounds … New Passions:
I’m usually not to one to force my religious beliefs on others but I don’t hide the fact that I’m a Christian. And by Christian I mean one who tries to follow in the teachings of Christ and believes that Christ is the son of God. Not, “bibile-beating zealot who thinks you’re going to hell because you don’t believe in the same things I do”. Now having said that let me share this article with you about a youth pastor from Littleton, Colorado…
I was a youth pastor in Littleton with a youth group made up primarily of Columbine students. In fact, for a time the Bernall family attended our church and Cassie attended some of our meetings. I had made an appointment to meet a student on the Columbine campus for lunch on April 20th, but that morning I woke up feeling very sick and decided to stay home. At 11:30 I got a phone call from one of my interns who was sobbing and urging me to turn on the television.
At first the images struck me as a fire at the school, but within seconds the cold hard reality of what was really going on sunk in to my conscious mind.
The unthinkable was happening. If you were old enough to remember that day, you know what I’m talking about. A quiet suburban neighborhood was transformed into a war zone, except instead of soldiers being shot, there were innocent teens going through hell on earth.
Over the next several months I met with each of my students who were there to let them pour out their anger and grief, and somehow try to answer the unanswerable question of why God would allow this to happen.
Now seven years later the old wounds are reopened with the release of over 900 pages of documents from the killers. Inside you’ll find what you probably expected…angst, hate, vitriolic diatribes, and even a glimpse into the thinking patterns of a psychopath and a depressive.
I’ll be honest, I wasn’t excited about the release of these diaries, I don’t enjoy reliving the feelings of that day. Yet as I have processed things the past few days, I was given an insight that hadn’t occurred to me before.
Perhaps sometimes when old wounds are opened, new passion is born. And that is the case with me today. I work with a ministry that is trying to reach every teen in America with the life changing message of the gospel, and we believe with all our hearts that the message of Christ is the answer to violence in the schools.
One of saddest entries in these diaries is from one of the killers who hoped to find peace in the afterlife. The tragedy of that is that the peace he sought was available to him in this life, and perhaps if he would have found it, 15 families would still have their loved ones. Our hope and prayer is that God will take the calamity and heartbreak of Columbine and use it to reach thousands, even millions of anger ridden students who may simply be looking for peace.
Say what you will about religion but maybe if Harris and Klebold had a little more “Thou shalt not kill” in their lives we wouldn’t even be discussing this.
Some media reactions to the Columbine records…
NPR reporter Jeff Brady has read through much of the material. He says it is sometimes difficult to tell who wrote what, but he says he believes that this line came from the journal of gunman Eric Harris:
“I am full of hate and I love it. I hate people and they better f—— fear me if they know what’s good for them.”
Jeff says the writings depict Harris as an emotional person whose “thought processes are really deep but really disturbing at the same time.”
The newly released papers suggest that the two seniors dropped several clues about their plans in advance. But they were not enough to prompt intervention.
I disagree that they weren’t enough to prompt investigation. There was too much evidence for not one person to notice.
If we didn’t all know that in this case, it ended in bloody mayhem, this could be any parent agonizing over an adolescent’s serious misbehavior and trying to make certain the young person faces up to the consequences and learns better. Which Harris appeared to do, while he was in the program and conforming to its requirements, but secretly he was boiling with rage. He lied to everyone, he was proud of the lies and he fooled the people who were doing what they could to rescue him.
How can any parent read these lines and not wonder, “Could that be my child?”
The video game references that I’ve read in excerpts (not having had time to consume the entire document yet) paint Harris more as an obsessive fanboy, period, than particularly driven by the game itself.
The parents of Columbine killers Eric Harris and Dylan Klebold have often been portrayed as disengaged from the lives of their sons and unaware of the dark paths lying ahead. But 936 pages of evidence taken from the killers’ homes and cars were released by the Jefferson County Sheriff’s office on Thursday, and a notebook kept by Eric’s father, Wayne, details a parent’s involvement in his child’s downward spiral.
But was still clueless to everything.
In one passage, he foreshadows the blame game that would follow the shootings. “I know I could get shot by a cop after only killing a single person, but hey … I chose to kill that one person so get over it! It’s MY fault! Not my parents, not my brothers, not my friends, not my favorite bands, not computer games, not the media, it is MINE!”
Harris was right. It was his fault. But plenty of others failed along the way.
Here are my quick thoughts on the journals and other documents that were released today.
Wayne Harris definitely had the “not my kid” syndrome. Eric Harris broke Brooks Brown’s windshield and yet Wayne Harris claims that his family is being victimized and that Brooks Brown is a manipulative con man.
Eric Harris was definitely a racist and a homophobe even though on his website he claimed he hated racism. Which would also make him a liar. I would almost say a pathological one.
Harris wrote reports about Charles Manson and The Third Reich that were almost favorable towards their subjects. Granted hindsight is 20/20 but if I was a teacher that definitely would have set off some red flags.
With all the references to killing and drawing of weapons and the like Harris made in his school work for at least a year you would think that some adult in his life, be it teacher or parent, would have noticed his unhealthy obsession.
They got their guns in November of 1998. That’s 6 months before the massacre. That should have given the parents ample opportunity to discover the guns. If my kids had records for theft and the like they would have been under the proverbial microscope.
These documents should put the final nail in the coffin of the bullying myth. Harris talked about how he was excluded not bullied. He was jealous of the popular kids. Like I’ve said before, the impression I got is that he wanted to be a prep or jock or whatever and was jealous that they didn’t accept him. They didn’t just snap. This was planned at least a year in advance. It was all about hate and egomania on the part of Harris and his Svengali like hold over Klebold.
The most preventable tragedy in history.